Dear Scale,
If the number could stop climbing- That would be great!
-Signed Me
Who hasn’t been there?
We put our trust into this rinky-dink contraption, stepping on it in desperation, hoping that the number it spits out is exactly the number we think it should be in our heads.
I stepped on the scale this morning and I was pretty upset. I started cursing- but is it really the scales fault? Should I really be putting my hope into this small invention hell bent on ruining my day?
Nope.
I like to stay healthy- I like to stay active.
I will admit that like most- since having children, losing weight has been a struggle. It was like some switch was activated after I was pregnant with my first child and ever since I have fought with losing weight. It really is annoying especially since I used to be the girl who could eat everything and anything she wanted without gaining a pound (Funny how that works)
It took me a long time to admit to myself that I was never going to be the skinny little bitch I used to me. Your body changes after you have children- that I can accept- that I can get used to- however this constant battle I seem to be facing trying to lose ‘those extra pesky twenty’ is really driving me bananas.
I will take the stretch marks.
I will accept the curves.
I will NOT accept these extra pounds that I can afford to lose.
While some of it is vanity– the truth is it is also about prevention. I have watched my mother and other relatives and family friends struggle with their health- a lot of things playing havoc with their bodies as they age -some that may have been preventable. I would like to avoid ‘the aging extras’- so I try to keep my weight at a healthy BMI (Which is hard when I am right on that cusp for my height and weight!!!) – I am not perfect- I go through phases where ‘pleasure foods’ creep into my diet and I go through phases when I am extremely healthy. I go through phases where I eat and cook relatively clean and I go through phases where I choose convenience before health because I am exhausted.
I know that most of my problem is me– and some of it is food intolerance’s/inflammation and of course there is my health. I also watch ‘how’ I attempt to lose weight because I am a former bulimic and if there is one thing that has been drilled into me it’s ‘safety first’.
Right now I am extra frustrated. I have gained fifteen pounds since the Fall!!! I know that some of that because of the extra sugar I was consuming- I started using pop (a.k.a-soda- to some of you reading this) and sugary foods as a crutch to help keep me awake and give me energy because I have to watch my coffee/tea intake. I have since weaned myself off and I am back to my ‘water, pure cranberry juice or tea’ regimen- but I will admit that they temptation is still there to drink a pop. I was at an Easter party the other day and shared one with my daughter- I broke the rule since it was a party but I am not allowing it to come back into my home. It has reverted back to a ‘special occasions treat’ and is no longer welcome to walk through my doors.
Since my surgery last month- I have gained five pounds!
I know that a lot of that has to do with bed-rest/inactivity.
I am so frustrated because I like to stay active and due to these Setons and the pain that comes with it- I have to be careful with what I do. Sometimes even the slightest bend the wrong way can cause tremendous pain and irritation- As I have mentioned in previous blogs- we bought a treadmill- and I have been using that when I can- (My max is 40 minutes at a time) and I am hoping to push myself up to doing that twice a day- but right now with pain management I can only handle the 40 minutes on a good day.
Yesterday we drove to a nearby town (Amherstburg, Ontario) and went for a walk by Fort Malden, and down by the river and their quaint little downtown area. I was happy to report that my pain stayed at a minimum and I was able to enjoy our time in the warm weather. It was nice to get out and actually walk outdoors too. (Though I am not going to lie- I enjoy my Netflix binge-watching while I stroll along in the comfort of my own home!)
I am a bit sad that I can’t hop on my bike and ride the trails. I am bummed that even my elliptical trainer isn’t usable and that my Beachbody PiYo DVD has to collect dust for a bit.. (OMG -I LOVE PiYo- If you haven’t you NEED to try it!)….but at least I have my treadmill (and hopefully some modified yoga!) to help me.
Right now I am researching yoga positions and more ways that I can stay active without hurting my healing process and causing pain. I am adjusting my diet yet again- in hopes that by eating relatively clean and focusing on healthy foods- that I can get my weight down so my clothes can fit properly again. It’s a challenge when I am feeling limited in so many ways- but it’s a challenge I am willing to accept. I know I ‘can’ do it- because I have done it before.
I can’t just wait to heal before I do ‘something’!
Consider this post my public accountability. I have blogged it- therefor I shall do something about it. (Ask me in a few weeks ‘how goes it!’)
Hopefully in a month, my dedication and determination will pay off! I can measure my waist and it will be smaller- and my clothes will reflect it. I am going to bust my Fitbit back out so it can track my activity so I can keep a better eye on it.
I am already eyeballing local spin classes for when I am all better- because I know when I am through all the surgeries and all the healing that I will want to celebrate with something new. Why not a new workout too?
I am really trying not to let the number on that scale get me down.
Wish me luck!
In the meantime- enjoy these pictures I took on our walk yesterday. We are having such beautiful Spring weather in southwestern Ontario!
Post Inspired By Today’s Daily Prompt: Climbing
All Photos Taken By Me ©TheyOnceCalledHerPumpkin
Good luck 🖤
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You can do it!
I’m in the same boat. I’ve gained 25 lbs. over the past year and can’t seem to stop gaining, despite eating lots of fruit and veggies and swearing off fast food. Must be something in the air. 😉
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Why is it so easy to gain weight yet so hard to lose? Good luck! 😃🐻
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The way I approach the scale nowadays is: muscle weighs more than fat, so even if you are on a committed workout plan, the number on the scale may not convey the actual results. I too have gained 20+- in the past 2 years and I hate it. I just recently got a FitBit and have been watching what I eat, but I’m not putting my focus on a number (weight, size); I’m trying to become healthier with the possible bonus of losing some weight. Good luck!!
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You can do it Irene! I have just started a weight loss journey myself. I am happy to say I am 13 pounds lighter, but I have a long way to go! I let life get the better of me for too long and the scale kept going up as a result. But I am determined to take back control! Only weighing in every two weeks to help prevent my frustration with the scale! I enjoyed reading your blog and wish you all the best!!
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